Saturday, March 30, 2013
i seriously kind of feel pathetic...evryone in skudex either hav their girlfriend, crus or their oher bestfriends to talk to or be accompany with...but i only have them...now it seems like they just throw me one side...they are my only friends...and this is happening...i really dont know what to do...sometimes i just feel so lonely that i want to hang myself to have some fun...and now they they are together...i just feel like i have lost everything in my life...nobody to talk to or accompany me to do things...i just have to do things myself...it really feel so pathetic to have to walk around town alone....that sudden scary feeling that you have when you walk half way through the street...just feel so tired that i dont even want to move on anymore...i just want to stay where i am...its meaningless living in this world for me now...ive lost everything...and it seems like the world doesnt need me...now what i can only do is hug my pillow and pretend that thats someone who loves me and cry...useless right?...i just feel like picking up my penknife and slit my wrist...我好无奈。。。好无助。。。
posted by kadenxy on Saturday, March 30, 2013
Monday, January 21, 2013
ever feel that you are hopeless and useless?...i do...all the timedrank a can of beer yesterday(wanting to try the taste) but i became a bit drunk. still knowing what im doing ...but i just cant control my emotions...i cried so hard...and my eyes became swollen this morning...i pondered and reflect alot yester day...
friends can turn their back against you just like that...today im treatimng him like that...but who knows that one day, ill be treated the same way as well...i dont know anything...
there are just two people that i put my full trust on them(kevin and amsyar) but i feel like we are drifting apart...its seems like they are more interested with their new friends or "new friends" and it just seems like im being annoying to them(starting to).i dont understand why im treated this way despite how i treat them...(although sometimes i might do things overboard...). its hard for me to trust people...not even talking about full trust now...i treat keven and amsyar like my real own brother...and they are the only ones im treating this way...i thought they will understand me and care about me...but it seems like im wrong(although i pray hard that iam) i put my effort in doing things for them but it seems like im not appreciated...
i may seems like i dont care and dont know...but actually i do...its just that i care secretly...only until you really need help the i will show...but it seems like you guys dont know...sometimes i wonder how many or who actually knows me...
and there is one thing i still dont understand...why do you want ours to be kept in secret but not the two of them? i really dont understand that...im i that really embarassing to be with?...maybe im...no matter what i will not put the blame on anyone...the most...only you...
i dont want to wear a mask everyday anymore...i want to be myself...
im forcing myself to make a decision on who i want to be from tomorrow onwards...
1)dont accept the truth, treat that nothing has happend and be who i have been in the past
2)accept the truth and be who i have been in the past
3)accept the truth, be myself...the quiet one..be ignorant to the surrounding
4)accept the truth and only talk when nessesary
realise that most of the choice are forcing me to accept the truth...i guess im choosing either 3 or 4...
安静了。。。沉默了。。。
posted by kadenxy on Monday, January 21, 2013
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
u happy, treat me like ur brother, u not happy, ask mi to fuck off...seriously, wat kind of friend r u? i treat u as my brother then u treat me like that?haizzz...idk wat to do...my mom saw the summary of my posb bank n she say i spent alot of money...yes i do. n most of it i spent on u...but nothing came in result...i keep on asking myself, y am i border so much, people doesnt hav mi in in their heart n y should i reserve a place in my heart for them? my chest pain is getting more n more often n its always near my heart area...im worried that i hav some heart disease or something, i hav difficulties in breating sometimes too...all i can do is pray n cry... n level, friends, relationship n family...so much presure n stress...i feel like slit open my throat n let the blood flow slowly...im tired of living...really...posted by kadenxy on Wednesday, July 25, 2012
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
honestly speaking, im jealous seeing my friends,best friends rather so close together with each other...but im happy...at least i know that they are happy n hav someone to turn to when they r in trouble or hav trouble instead of mi who cant help anything instead adding more problems...i ask myself...how many of my friends that ive regard them as my best friend r really my best friend?do they treat me as their best friend also?...i hav no one to talk to when im troubled by something...only through this blog...but sometimes, this website is also bullying mi...i cant share with others because i promise to keep all this secrets to myself...secrets will always be secrets...i will never tell anyone unless for special reason... my eldest brother is graduating from his poly tomoro, after that, ns then uni...my second brother, although he looks like he is not serious in his studies, but he is doing very well. me? i dont no...i really cant imagine myself in the future. but one thing im sure, im the most useless kid in this family...i think my last graduation will be my ite graduation, n i dont think my parents would want to go. n i dont wan them to go. i dont wan them to remind themselves that they hav such a useless child... i dont no wat the use of mi living in this world...snatching oxygen? maybe im the reason for end of world...posted by kadenxy on Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Sunday, May 6, 2012
Xin mei is ignoring my msg…now,even friends… i suddenly felt that im irritating… i think i really am… She said that she has something to say but doesnt no how to put into words n said its coming soon…i hav a strong feeling that she is going to break up with mi…but she doesnt no how to tell mi… i feel like asking for break up because i no if she ask, she will feel guilty, but the problem is i still love her… wat to do? I cant ask my friend because i cqnt let them no we stead…thats the promise i gave…wat to do?wat to do?!posted by kadenxy on Sunday, May 06, 2012
Thursday, March 29, 2012
I guess this few nights im going to bed with two swollen eyes :'(Im a 15 year old teenager. I do nid encouragement. I do nid to know the truth. I do nid people's trust. I do nid love… i no my jokes arent funny. I no i doesnt hav a nice features. I no im ugly. I no im useless. I no i hav no talent. I no i dont look strong/muscular. I no i cannot do well in my studies. I no im bad in love. I no i hav a thin skin. I no im very irritating. I no i dont deserve u. But… i want to no the truth…
I hav many thoughts on u, but i dont post it on twitter or facebook because people might no it. I didnt even spoke to my friends about it. I did all this because i dont wan to break our promises, i dont wan u to get into trouble… but u always think that my friend is very gossip n hav a big mouth…but they r actually not the one who tells off my secret…simply because they no nothing
posted by kadenxy on Thursday, March 29, 2012
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
i dont no... but... i feel so weird this few days... i really envy those people who can share their thoughts and problems with others either face to face or through the net... but when i do that, i seemed being ignored... im not sure...but i think those people who ive treat them as my brothers r drifting apart from mi n i feel like they think im irritating... n i just wan to be a normal 15 year old guy hu can hav a relationship openly n go out together to hav our meals...but i just cant seem to get it done... im feeling sick... as in both sick of life n sick in health... i think i hav problem with my health n its getting worsen each day... i doesnt no how long can i live n dont no wats going to happen the next min... i really wan to appreciate wat i hav now but i doesnt hav anything to appreciatewhy am i always the one who is giving my best to everything, giving people wat they wan or even do things for them, but y they just dont appreciate n doesnt even giv mi something in return, sometimes not even a thank you n worse still, they take up all the credits and left all the shit to mi...
crying in the silence is the worst feeling...
posted by kadenxy on Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Sunday, February 19, 2012
today got no mood to study...haiz...wat to do??? love u...i really love u...i want to ask u for stead but...i scared u reject mi n we will become like a very normal friends again...i really hope that our relationship now will last forever or even better...love youposted by kadenxy on Sunday, February 19, 2012
Friday, February 17, 2012
quite happy this few days :D now is common test period but i like slack only...:Psorry if u had heard or seen something i say about u..sorry if im rude...its really out of saddness n i dont really mean it...
anyways, thanks for that letter i really like that big smile u drew...it really makes me smile/laugh. i will look at it whenever im down and ill take a picture and put it as my wallpaper for my phone :D
posted by kadenxy on Friday, February 17, 2012
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
so many bad things happening together this few days...im so down...stressful...now everything makes sense to me...all ive done for u...all the effort...im just making a fool out of myself... stupid mi...still believing that u will love mi...no nid to say...i no...im a pathetic stupid guyposted by kadenxy on Tuesday, February 07, 2012
Monday, January 30, 2012
at times, i wonder y am i born in this world...parents doesnt recongnise wat i do...think im stupid,useless...yes i am...from the top to the bottom...im stressed... but who knows? i have no aim towards my life...no motivation...nothing at all...my body is juat a shell...nothing inside...posted by kadenxy on Monday, January 30, 2012
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Sad life…so many things happen today…it's one of my worst day…I'm stressed…but no one could lend mi their shoulders…I really envious of those people who had their favorite people around them…bestfriend, boy or girlfriend… envious of those people who get to celebrate their birthdays with their friends and received presents, envious of those people who their friends know them very well and help them when their in trouble or down… I hate my life,I hate myself, I hate everything!
posted by kadenxy on Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Monday, January 2, 2012
ooo...forgotten to post for new year!!!last year, everything was a rush...i hope that this year things will slow down a little bit and be smooth and goes the way that is best for everyone. and ,and hope that i can catch up wat teachers will be teaching...and score for my n level than can go polytechnic without taking o level...nid to sleep already...tomoro first day of school...haizzz...hope that all the happenings will be good to me... nitesposted by kadenxy on Monday, January 02, 2012
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday me...happy birthday to me... It's my birthday!!!and I'm now 15 hahaha... Just went to read the wishes that Ive wished last year...one of it...came true somehow...but the rest...let's not talk about it...Now I will 'renew' my wishes :)
Firstly,I wish that I'll get 11 points and below for my N level next year so that I can go to polytechnic straight away without going to O's.
Secondly,I wish that ill be healthy,safe and luck to be always be on my side.
Lastly,...(wishing in my heart)...
Done!
Let's see next year will it come true (I hope it will)
9 more days to new year and school is going to open soon...donno wan to be happy or sad...
posted by kadenxy on Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Sunday, December 18, 2011
Just like that … holidays r going to end soon…haizzz…somehow Ive achive wat I wan but there is stii something missing…I just wan to no how u r doing… but y did u ignore my SMS this few days?
Next we'd is my birthday…haven't decide on how to celebrate it… but most probably I will just stay at home…
I have been thinking of this que for years… wat would I want to be wan I grow up? I still have no idea…I nid something or someone to lead mi…
I really hope that I have pets like Alvin,Simon and thedore… who can sing and cheer mi up…
I have lots of emotion…but I just don't no how to express…
posted by kadenxy on Sunday, December 18, 2011
Saturday, December 10, 2011
Alot of time...I ask myself'y am I in this world?' I'm a nobody...no on knows mi...well...just something that I want to tel u guys...the real side of mi is the emo...lonely...weak...aggressive and full of hatred...acting wat I'm now is real tired...I'm tired of life...I just want to end it...Honestly...lonliness to mi is nothing...I have no friends from p1 to p4...I'm always alone during recesse...lonely?is something that it's not even scary...
:'(
posted by kadenxy on Saturday, December 10, 2011
Sunday, October 23, 2011
today is one of my saddest day...worst than the day when u broke up with mi...u actually forgot my n.o and gave me cold shoulder like never before...u no y i love u? because u have a kind, caring and innocent heart...but now, u r not the you ive met...when u r sick or wat ever, u have lots of people hu cared for u...but hav u ever think about mi? ive cried for u, worried for u, and felt angry for u...n this is wat u giv mi in return? maybe when u r reading this now u think i deserve this...but let mi tell u...i dont...u always hav friend around u... but im always lonely...i kept the promise u ask mi to...but did u did the same?i never think that u r selfish until the day i found out that a person who shouldnt know the secret actually knew about it. u say my friend cannot be trusted but have u ever think about urs? u know y i didnt post anything that is releated to u on facebook? because i still care for u...but do u? u can brighten up my day...but at the same time, u can make my day worst...posted by kadenxy on Sunday, October 23, 2011
today is one of my saddest day...worst than the day u broke up with mi...u actually forgot my hp n.o and gave mi cold shoulder like never before...u know nothing exactly...i cried for u, worried for u, felt angry for u...u know y i love u? because of ur kindness, caring n innocent heart...but u have changed...u r no longer the
posted by kadenxy on Sunday, October 23, 2011
Monday, October 10, 2011
Yesterday, I found out that I hav the symptoms of contracting the first stage of diabetes…n today, I realised I hav slight depression…honestly,I'm very scared…I'm afraid that I might die…I'm afraid that if I tell people I've slight depression they might keep a distance away from mi and treat mi like a crazy person…it all started because of studies, relastionships, family n my health…I don't understand y my family treat mi in his way…from my view, I treat them better than my brothers…but when I talk with a little irrittated feeling,my mom told mi off…but when my brother shout at her she say nothing…
I always feel that I'm extra…I don't belong to this world…
Do u no I created this blog because of u? I thought I could record down every happy n womderful moments that we hav…but in the end… there is alot of this that I wanted to say to u n do for u… but u actually say that I'm irritating…honestly, I feel jealous when u r too close with other guys.I know u don't like the feeling…but y don't u giv mi one more chance? Y DID U BREAK THE PROMISE THAT U HAV MADE?!
难道你还不明白我对你的爱?
Is this my fate? What did I do to deserve all this?WAT?!
Who cares for mi???no one…
posted by kadenxy on Monday, October 10, 2011
Yesterday,i found out that I hav the sy
posted by kadenxy on Monday, October 10, 2011
Monday, September 12, 2011
am i in a wrong??? ive made alot of wrong decision in my life...this year i have found out hu is really my true friends...those hu will be there for mi... i actually recall those days with u...n my feeling is like...is like on that day...ive cried out screctly...the sadness feeling just came out like that...i seriously think im a failure...a total failure...posted by kadenxy on Monday, September 12, 2011
am i wrong punishing them??? ive made alot of wrong decision...forever...i wanted to change...but hu will or wan to help mi??? i actually recall all those days...n now my feeling is just like the day...
posted by kadenxy on Monday, September 12, 2011
Thursday, July 14, 2011
I hav failed as a leader, a friend n a son…I donno wat can I do… whatever I do, there will people not happy…
I just envy those hu's parents r very supportive or those hu hav a girl/boyfriend… at least they hav someone to turn to… if I tell my parents, they will just ask mi to giv up…n Im not in any relationship…if I turn to my best friend… day by day, they will just feel irritated… i guess I just hav to lie on my bed n talk to my pillow… just hu on earth can really understand mi???WHO???!!!
posted by kadenxy on Thursday, July 14, 2011
I hav failed as a leader, a friend n a son…
posted by kadenxy on Thursday, July 14, 2011
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Sch life… hmmm… not really sucks, atleast not so bored… but nid wake up early =[having parade on fri!!! So nervous… scared break voice hehehe… haizzz still getting use to my time, especially after taking over the unit…
Still, like normal… not going well in relationship… I hope I can hav a movie with u… but the problem is I donna wat to say when we meet each other… I hope that ray will come soon…
posted by kadenxy on Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Am I good enough for u??? I've been asking myself this que...From last year...I'm always trying to keep and make myself happy...but all of that is justwats outside of mi...never happy... How long do I hav to keep it??? Is it so shame to be... My heart had broken into pieces already...
If u think I'm good for u...reply my message.
posted by kadenxy on Tuesday, June 07, 2011
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Came back from changi n reach home at about 12 ba... Than unpacked all my things n hav coffee n waffles n...went to sleep...Honestly,the camp they hav this year is much better than ours...but they r not high...
Haizzz...my holiday started...but I don't think I can get a good rest...
2 more camps to go...
I miss those dazes...
posted by kadenxy on Sunday, May 29, 2011
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Hi!!!long time never post le...Did not really well for mye...failed math...haizzz...sometime I'm happy to hav a live like that...sometime rather not...
Preparing to go for last week of school!!!:)
Nites peoples:D sweet dreams
posted by kadenxy on Sunday, May 22, 2011
Monday, April 25, 2011
Hahaha...long time never post... Quite busy with school works n ncc... I suddenly felt that I hav no life...everyday not about sch work than ncc...sch work,ncc. My life is boring...I hope I can change my life or add someone or something to my life that will make mi livelier or happier...waiting for that days arrival...3 more days to MYE!!! Good luck to everyone!!!be well prepared aite ;)
posted by kadenxy on Monday, April 25, 2011
Friday, April 15, 2011
haizzz...just now mr michael told mi that they dont allow UG to go for OBS...so sad...n another thing...the f*** npcc copy us for pds...i look down on them man...things were going well at first...but now...y???
wat kind of bad thing is coming up next???she gt a stead???i dont no...now i just hope that my wishes will come true...not too many...just 3...pls...
posted by kadenxy on Friday, April 15, 2011
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Haha just now morning found out that I'm goig for OBS!!! Yu hoooo!!! But I'm still a little bot scared cause it's at least a 3 day camp n I'm gonna be home sick n miss everyone...n another thing is that it's very near Spec course...so,I gonna do my time management properly.Exams r coming near n I don't really understand my physics...haizzz...gonna get help from some other teacher...
Hope that all my wishes will come true n life will be much more easy n organised cause currently my life is controlled by sch homework/activity n CCA...hope it will resume after Friday...
I don't no y... But I feel jealous the pass few weeks when they r close together...is it normal to be jealous...or am I thinking too much???or is it a form of concern or something???WTH!!!another to worried n think about...someone help mi!!!
posted by kadenxy on Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Hi;) long time never post le...Exams r coming n I'm not ready for my physics...lol...wat to do???haizzz... Tryin to find other teachers to help,but haven find one...
Most of the things r sort of going the way I wan...but everytime only this one particular thing that is not going my way...how??? I'm a idiot in this...I nid some 'expert' to help...i don't wats wrong with mi...can u tell mi how I can change to be ur perfect one???(although no one is perfect)...
Guess I hav to wait for a very long time...
posted by kadenxy on Saturday, April 09, 2011
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Yoo hoo... Wgs pds got 15th in place in the whole nation...Things r sort of going my way but still...somethings r not...n they r damn important to mi...how can I make it how I wanted it to be???n --- posted somthing that I don't quite really understand...wat is --- trying to say??? Haizzz...
Anyway, tomoro is NAPFA test n iam not really prepared...
Alot of things r coming up; EL camp,CIP,Chinese oral,sports carnival n MYE...
Let's pray for everyone n hope that they will get wat they want...
posted by kadenxy on Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Haizzz...1 week holiday...1 day for mi actually...but definitely the most memoriable one...ADC!!!hav a great time there...n thanks to sir jeremy for teaching mi patiently...Night 3...wat a short conversation...I hope we will hav more conversation n a longer one...
Nites to everyone n lucks to those hu haven done their holiday homework...
posted by kadenxy on Saturday, March 19, 2011
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Yoohoo!!!ncc pds finally made it in to finals this time,despite mi doing lots of mistake n haiqal dropping e rifle...n of course all this credits goes to Andy...guys 2 more weeks to finals...let's rest for a week n hav our intensive alright ;)Although today something great had happen but...
I actually really wanted to help...but I hav no choice...I promise if next time u nid help...I will do as much as I can...n I really hope that wat happen in last year June will happen again pls...pls forgive mi...
posted by kadenxy on Saturday, March 12, 2011
Friday, February 18, 2011
I am so heartbroken...I shouldn't be even born in this world,if I wasn't born...people will not be disturb...they will nt waste their time to hate mi...or maybe the world will nt even end...I wonder who will really care for mi...hu will really understand mi...no one...y must I even care for u when u don even care for mi???
hu will appriciate mi for all the things I done for them???
Why must all of u treat mi so cruely???!!! I HATE THIS WORLD!!!I HATE...myself...
posted by kadenxy on Friday, February 18, 2011
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Walao!!!today mr tai release us at 2.18(around there)when he is suppose to release us at 1.45...n make mi only hav half an hour to change n eat...so I only ate a burger n Milo than go ncc. F i almost blackout after the paradE n running...can't see anything...everything around mi became green n I am breathless n that two heartless staff wans mi to repeat the permission n I was like...WTF!Tomoro Kevin ask mi to...don no whether should I do it or nt...
posted by kadenxy on Thursday, February 17, 2011
Monday, February 14, 2011
HAPPY VALANTINES DAY!!! Haizzz...to mi it's the same old monday...no dats no nothing...only gt stuff related to ncc...quite sick n tired of it...but wat to do???I was thinking...did I made the wrong decision that time???y can't I get wat I want???
Can u giv mi one chance???
posted by kadenxy on Monday, February 14, 2011
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Just came back from sentosa to look at flowers???but I had a great time n the flowers r nice n smells gd ;)after that went to chomp chomp to eat!Just now I suddenly miss u very badly...recalling wat happen last year...I wanted to sms u...but I don't no wat to say n I don't no whether I am doing the right thing...
Valantine day is coming...wish u a happy valantine day :)
posted by kadenxy on Saturday, February 12, 2011
Friday, February 11, 2011
That few scenes reminds of mi...but they still gt happy ending...but mi???I am the one hu is always being left out...look down on n being hated...
I doesn't hav any scone chance like others...once I make a mistake,people will nt forgive n will remember for live...
I just don't no how to release my feeling...just keep everything to myself...
posted by kadenxy on Friday, February 11, 2011
Friday, February 4, 2011
Just came back from costa sand pasir ris...had fun there...going back there tomoro for wild wild wet!!!Nth to post le...nites Zzz...
posted by kadenxy on Friday, February 04, 2011
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Hahaha...just came back from chinatown!!!there was a human traffic... OMG! I when there to see the fire crackers n fireworks!but too bad that I was in the wrong position to that the video of fireworks...:(I will upload the vid tomoro ;)
lastly...happy Chinese new year to all my friends n may all ur wishessss come true ;)
posted by kadenxy on Wednesday, February 02, 2011
Yeaaa!!!! Just had my REUNION DINNER...so tired now...feel like sleeping... -,- hope all my wishes come true...donno whether my dad will bring mi to chinatown later???so boring at home...haizzz...alot of people having their valantine day alone...mi???included...
posted by kadenxy on Wednesday, February 02, 2011
Saturday, January 29, 2011
It has been raining for the past few hours n now...finally stopped but I am colddddd....I wanted to watch alot of movies...but no one to go with...so lonely...
Honestly...wats the point of writting all this...I mean it's like no one came here;no one cares...I will be waiting for that day's arrival...*** *** *** *** ** *** **** ******...
posted by kadenxy on Saturday, January 29, 2011
Monday, January 24, 2011
Today it's so damm normal nth special actually happen today...Haizz...still thinking should I buy anything during valantine day???...
posted by kadenxy on Monday, January 24, 2011
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Today gt resilence walk...feel like it's a waste of time don't no wats the point???N also nonsence just will nt stop --- looks like ---is angry but don't no whether is --- really angry...really hope that --- she will nt be angry...
Wat a tired n meaning-less day...
posted by kadenxy on Saturday, January 22, 2011
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Yeseterday,19/01/11...This is the first time I talk to---although is nt like very long...actually only 2 sentence... Lol...but I very happy le...
Today...
Gt to command part b with no part d around!!!so happy n fun,can shout at the
n punish them ;)haizz still can't "catch the ball" of wat---is thinking...i really hope I can read peoples mind or someone just tell mi wats going on!!!
posted by kadenxy on Thursday, January 20, 2011
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
"let past be past..." is it as easy assaying it out??? If u ask mi my and is yes n no...If things that r not that important,of course I will let oy be a past...
But if the thing is very important...I will remember it for life...
should I giv up or continue wat I am doing now??? Honestly...I don't no wats ---is thinking n does ---has someone ---like...I am now having a very mix feeling...don't no wat to do...
N sch had start...homework plus things like that,I hav alot of stress...maybe some of u will say that ' y don't u just forget --- n carry on with ur life?!' I really hope I can do that but the thing is that I doesn't no how!!! N can someone kindly teach mi how to release stress?
posted by kadenxy on Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Long time never post le...haizz...quite stress this few days cause now I am already worried about my EOY result n even my N-level...n also scared that I donno wat to do for D&T.I had a weird dream yesterday nite...a dream that affect mi n Im thinking of it for the whole day...thinking of it whether is true anot...but people say that wat happen in the dream will be reverse in the real life n I really hope that it will happen to my this dream...but I still hope that I can dream of the same dream but it's like a later part of it,but still I hope it's nt real...
Nowadays people r getting sick...n taking MC...do rest well n drink more water...don't force urself to do something when u know u can't do it due to ur sickness, OKAY??? ;P
posted by kadenxy on Saturday, January 15, 2011
Friday, December 31, 2010
Happy new year!!!when countdown at khatib instead of marina but it's still fun with the fire works:)post it when I use my laptop...posted by kadenxy on Friday, December 31, 2010
6 more hours to e end of 2010 n the start of 2011 ...a brand new year... Let's work hard together n archive the things we wanted or we didn't get in 2010...
posted by kadenxy on Friday, December 31, 2010
Monday, December 20, 2010
Yeah!!!!finally... 21/12/2010!!!!I hav turned 14...although there Is no cake or candle or anyone singing birthday song to mi,but I will still make my wishes here...firstly,I wish that I will gt gd grades for my tests n exams...secondly,I wish that world will nt end on e 21/12/2012,exactly 2 years from now I mean I hope that the world does nt ends... Thirdly...I will say in my heart...done! Haha wonder will anyone bash mi tomoro when I go to sch?...posted by kadenxy on Monday, December 20, 2010
Friday, December 17, 2010
Haizz...time check...3:12...ya nt sleep yet...I am really concern about something...but nobody...just no one don wan to tell mi...nt even wan to read wat I say...pray hard fir my wish to come true...3days more to my birthday...wonder if anyone would celebrate with mi???posted by kadenxy on Friday, December 17, 2010
Friday, December 10, 2010
haizzz.... donnno y...this few days had lots of imagination;bad imagination...hope it's nt true...10 days exactly to my birthday :DDD but...11 days to end of holidays...
felt so lonely...no wonder will there be anyone hu will no my feelings...
i felt that life is no where better than hell...
wonder if anyone cares for mi...
posted by kadenxy on Friday, December 10, 2010
Saturday, November 20, 2010
haha...today's class outing so fun :Dwent swimming in the sea than they disturb mi...:{
than went to subway to hav dinner there n its coldddd
after tat we went to skating & some ride bike
i fell the most time (front & back) :{ n gt alot of blisters...
but...i will stand up when ever i fall, just like my life...
just realise tat nw is 21/11/2010 yeahhh 1 more months :)
late now...nites
posted by kadenxy on Saturday, November 20, 2010
Thursday, November 4, 2010
can someone tel mi the truth???y i dont no anything???wat/y did u regrate???y dont u accept mi???
i really hope that all my wishes will come true...
posted by kadenxy on Thursday, November 04, 2010
so bored at home zzz.... hope that tomoro is 18 so that i can go back to sch
4 more days to shooting competition...i hope that i will not be reserve n hope that we will win...
6 more days to gt result of e streaming,I WAN TO GO TO 3N1 N STUDY A MATH BADLY
gt lots & lots of wishes... hope that all come true
really hope that there is miracle...
posted by kadenxy on Thursday, November 04, 2010
Thursday, October 28, 2010
haizzz...... sch finally ended le..... i miss those sch days...gd luck to everyone in everything in ur live n hope u go to the class n the subject u wan.
i hope we will hav a chance to meet during the holidays ;D
posted by kadenxy on Thursday, October 28, 2010
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
27/10/2010just now gt math trail at city square mall, quite fun. after that w go walk walk than when we see some "chio bu" than we go whaaa...
found out one interesting thing and one truth , the intereting thing is that i was told that our total defence pds performence gt a ghost inside the video, i will upload it when i gt hold of the video. the truth is...... not able to say here....
i hope i will gt a respond from ---
26/10/2010
gt sep(kayaing) the water was so cold when we first when in than the instructor ask us to hold hands n lie down in the water than the girl beside mi doesnt wan n giv the face like as if my hand gt virus or i will eat her up...than when the instructor ask us to gt on shore n say can let go of hand le than she was holding my hand i actually wan let go de than i see the whole group of them cant swim up(maybe of the current???) than i hao xin pull them back thann when i wan to let go that time the girl was holding my hand so tight than i go pull back my hand than she let go...
had a fun da ;D
posted by kadenxy on Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Friday, October 22, 2010
ITS FRIDAY TODAY!!!can hav a good rest:)just now when walking home with chin yee, saw two guys from christ church on the bike
than suddenly here one sound when we turn our head we saw i guy sitting on the road.
both of us were laughing like hell.so bad i know.
Hoping someone will watch horror movie with mi ;D
i dont really know wat is happiness do...
giv mi one more chance n i will promise u...
posted by kadenxy on Friday, October 22, 2010
Friday, October 15, 2010
YEAHHHHHH!!!!!! exams r finally over....but at home very bored.
just now went to beach road,penisular and harbour front with aydil n his friend.
went to brought a magic trick n a knife for collection.
so boredddddd, hope someone would wan to watch movie with mi, better is horror movie...
posted by kadenxy on Friday, October 15, 2010
Thursday, September 23, 2010
haizzz.... i felt so left out ... y this mistake only can be make once???y no one can understand mi???
i hope that someone can really understand mi...
n i really hate u not u but u....if i hav 10 bullets in a gun n i am allowed to shoot people, u r the first one i will shoot >P
posted by kadenxy on Thursday, September 23, 2010
Monday, September 20, 2010
zzzz... knee injured because of a stupid car.... nvm don wan to talk about it.currently studying science so bored...
but too bad nid to work hard to go to 3n1:(
and lastly...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!:D
wish that all ur wishes will come true ;)
posted by kadenxy on Monday, September 20, 2010
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
blog dead quite a long time...firstly, HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY to all of the teachers!!!
secondly,HAPPY BIRTHDAY/TEACHER'S DAY to miss chee...
tomoro going to celebrate her birthday with all the AVA members and teachers at marina square.
hiazzz... quite boring these few days donno wat to do...
posted by kadenxy on Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
yesterday went to marina bay to watch the planes and the vehicles and also not forgeting the fireworks.haizzz.. today is the end of the long weekend , tomoro starting school:(
but nvm back to normal live again.
posted by kadenxy on Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Sunday, August 8, 2010
just now go to NDP dinner to perform, the best performec, no one drop the rifle.than after that go for countdown!!! than play at the hill beside , than saw frog n lamborghini
n took a video of the fireworks!!!lastly HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!!!
posted by kadenxy on Sunday, August 08, 2010
Monday, August 2, 2010
today gt eng & geo common test, scared fail zzz....just now was revising for sci n my brain was like going to burst le....
if i fail this common test i will die... cant afford to go to 3n2... must go to 3n1 n study A math...
but i hav a feeling of being look down......
jia you!!!! n good luck to u n mi for common test ;D
posted by kadenxy on Monday, August 02, 2010
today gt eng & geo common test
posted by kadenxy on Monday, August 02, 2010
today gt eng & geo common test , scared fail zzzz......
just now was revising for sci than i memorise until my brain going burst le.
i hav a feeling of being look down
posted by kadenxy on Monday, August 02, 2010
Friday, July 23, 2010
yesterday gt ncc iron man vertical challenge. my timming is 10.39mins n to think i am the first , in the end i came in the 3rd in my group ZZZ......Haizzzz.... gt three movies wan to watch this month but no one wan to go watch with m i:'(
haizz maybe i am annoting n distrubting...
posted by kadenxy on Friday, July 23, 2010
Friday, July 16, 2010
AHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!SO HOT!!!!N MY MUSCLES R ACHEING!!!!!!!yesterday gt iron man , force myself to do as many push up's as i can, n also pull up's &dips, cause i want to win this year's iron man!!!
than just now went to hq to return n.o.1 uni, stupid mi...went home so early, i was like... wat the hell,gt nothing to do zzzz...
hope that miracle happen ...pls.pls.pls.pls.
posted by kadenxy on Friday, July 16, 2010
Saturday, July 10, 2010
today went to sch for speech day...
during the parade was ok but the GOH was signing some documents than we were standing there in redy position for about 5-10mins wat the....than the performence only afiq drop rifle but don sad kays;) everyone make mistakes
i think the auidence gt problem de, when we throw the rifle everyone was like so quiet lucky mr faris go 'wooo' than all start to cheer and clap.
took some photos in the changing room but no video :(
posted by kadenxy on Saturday, July 10, 2010
Thursday, July 8, 2010
now i realise i am lying n cheating myself evey seconds,minutes,hours n days...i cant stop thinking about it... just now think of something than.....
someone help mi pls!!!n tel mi wat to do!!!pls!!!pls!!!pls!!!
posted by kadenxy on Thursday, July 08, 2010
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
y must u be so cruel?if i don exsist in this world...
will people be happier?
will there be no more trouble for others?
i think yes....
if i die i think everyone will be very happy...rite?
there will be no difference if a idiot(mi) is missing from this world...
a idiot doesnt worth people wasteting their memories to remember...
posted by kadenxy on Wednesday, July 07, 2010
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
today went to nan qiao primary for the trail.quite fun for the first round but the second round...haizzz.... alot of big shots like director , wth i kana a man donno hu the hell is he but like very"action" talk big than suddenly pop out one que that make mi go "errrrrr....."
than after that gt PDS yeahhhh...... but bullshit, actually gt performence for shanghai visitors:'( but because gt the trail than cannot go:'( than they broke my rifile also:'(((((((( MY MISSTRESS:'( y u all break it?????
posted by kadenxy on Tuesday, July 06, 2010
Friday, July 2, 2010
haizzz.... long time never post le.this few weeks quite sad and busy, so my emotion no so stable:(
I WAN HER BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
zzz....... nth to post le.
:'(
posted by kadenxy on Friday, July 02, 2010
Monday, June 21, 2010
today go "class"outing only gt 6 people go:(actually go east coast but than after that change mind go sentosa.
go rent bike than after that lionel fall down hahahaha....:)
than after that actually wan go universal studio outside walk walk but too late.
than take train home:D although not many people go but very fun;)
posted by kadenxy on Monday, June 21, 2010
Thursday, June 17, 2010
yeahhhh............. having class outing on mon nnut donno going sentosa or east coast.haizzzz..... pds trainnig cancelled again zzz.... part a, u will get it from mi when school reopen, hahahaha.......
just now kana bang by bike , ouch very pain :'(
nth to post le nites,bb
posted by kadenxy on Thursday, June 17, 2010
Sunday, June 13, 2010
haizz...long time never post le.sat competition we lost:( but i also quite happy cause no nid train le.
than after that when to pasir ris for the ncc chalet , than at nite when to explore the red house but than i don dare to go in. my friends n seniour say they saw something
one of 'them' was playing hide n seek with my friend, LOL.
than yesterday morning come home.
to post le bb:)
posted by kadenxy on Sunday, June 13, 2010
Thursday, June 10, 2010
zz....zzz..zz...z just now in the afternoon help my bro take shaver to the toilte ,wth i suddenly blackout than bang on the wall n toilte door,lips bleeding now, very pain:'(tomoro going beach rd with kevin n hj than go for asthetic nite, yaaaaaa!!!!!!!!
posted by kadenxy on Thursday, June 10, 2010
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
today go help out the asthetic nite , than went home at 6 plushaizzzzz.... waiting for something.
posted by kadenxy on Tuesday, June 08, 2010
Monday, June 7, 2010
z...z...z today go for pds training. than after that go play street soccer, WTH when i climb over the wall wan play that time , i fall n hit my leg than swollen. haizzzz..... so pain :'(posted by kadenxy on Monday, June 07, 2010
Friday, June 4, 2010
yeah...:) i pass my test , i gt 81. but everything has to pay a price, i yesterday realise i kana sunburn at my neck:(just now go sch to train for pds competition.
nth to post le byes:)
posted by kadenxy on Friday, June 04, 2010
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
zzz....just came back from tuition.tomoro is last day of basic pds course n also the test day . wish mi luck for my test tomoro , hope i pass the course. now my arms r pain :(
posted by kadenxy on Wednesday, June 02, 2010
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
today go pds course , quite tired n NOT FUN n also just have my hair donebecause of pds course , don wan to fail.
posted by kadenxy on Tuesday, June 01, 2010
Saturday, May 29, 2010
is my attitude that bad?am i really that annoying?
did i make the wrong decision?
can someone pls tel mi!!!!!!
i wish i could make things rewind....
posted by kadenxy on Saturday, May 29, 2010
Thursday, May 27, 2010
today i don no wat happen to mi , suddenly lose temper to azreen sorry:(but than i also happy because i gt the chance to go PDS course le yeahhhhhhh:)
going beach road on sat .
nothing to post le bb
posted by kadenxy on Thursday, May 27, 2010
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
today gt pds, yeah... finally gt chance to do pt with part a le.still gt 17 days to competition.today quite happy .
nothing to nitespost le
posted by kadenxy on Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
today go YOG learning centre than go principal dialog.the learning centre quite fun, gt the amazing race than my group gt the first prize but never bring the prize home.
the principal dialog until 5zzzzzzz........
nothing to post le nites,bb:)
posted by kadenxy on Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Monday, May 24, 2010
today....ok lar.just now "doing" pds than mr faris came when we lying down than we act act like doing than mr faris say he wan see some thing. until wave, than we were like die we never train also.than i request for i more trainning. we were like buking up. lucky he never scold ask.
Mr faris pls don come to my blog :p
posted by kadenxy on Monday, May 24, 2010
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
just now morning kevin and xue kee was trying to help mi, but suddenly the whole class now about it and making a big hoo ha. in the end they all wanted mi to sit down and talk with her but then because of the whole class was there , i don dare to sit down.2n1 remember this, do not interfere peoples problems.thx to xue kee and kevin for helping mi:)
posted by kadenxy on Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Monday, May 17, 2010
kevin!!!!!!!!!i hate u!haizzzz i will hate someone for life,,breaking my life,------person.
pls pls pls pls..........
posted by kadenxy on Monday, May 17, 2010
Friday, May 14, 2010
Haiz...... a few days never post le.today get back math paper , scored 56 in total:(
tomoro nid go to school to help the scrabble competition, nid to wake up at 6.
still gt few more weeks for PDS competition.
nothing to post le , nites.
posted by kadenxy on Friday, May 14, 2010
Monday, May 10, 2010
Hiaz.... today the art exam so tired. but i try to keep myself awake by painting on the tissue :)just now when cleaning my table that time the dust fly to my nose, than i was like snezzing like hell.
still gt two days to ncc passing out parade, dunno when is the rehersal.
Nth to post le ,nites.
posted by kadenxy on Monday, May 10, 2010
Saturday, May 8, 2010
today coming back home after tuition , i start doing my art. Haizzz all the colouring and drawing make mi wan to sleep.No choice nid it for exam :[posted by kadenxy on Saturday, May 08, 2010
Thursday, May 6, 2010
today first paper 1 was math. i did until the very last minute than finish.so scared cant finish .
The second paper was D&T . i only know 1 quater of the paper the rest , GUESS
posted by kadenxy on Thursday, May 06, 2010
today first paper 1 was math. i did until the very last minute than finish.
so scared cant finish .
The second paper was D&T . i only know 1 quater of the paper the rest , GUESS
posted by kadenxy on Thursday, May 06, 2010