Saturday, March 30, 2013
i seriously kind of feel pathetic...evryone in skudex either hav their girlfriend, crus or their oher bestfriends to talk to or be accompany with...but i only have them...now it seems like they just throw me one side...they are my only friends...and this is happening...i really dont know what to do...sometimes i just feel so lonely that i want to hang myself to have some fun...and now they they are together...i just feel like i have lost everything in my life...nobody to talk to or accompany me to do things...i just have to do things myself...it really feel so pathetic to have to walk around town alone....that sudden scary feeling that you have when you walk half way through the street...just feel so tired that i dont even want to move on anymore...i just want to stay where i am...its meaningless living in this world for me now...ive lost everything...and it seems like the world doesnt need me...now what i can only do is hug my pillow and pretend that thats someone who loves me and cry...useless right?...i just feel like picking up my penknife and slit my wrist...
我好无奈。。。好无助。。。
posted by kadenxy on Saturday, March 30, 2013